Monday, January 14, 2013

Reflections: Catching Feelings?

Reflections: Catching Feelings?: Either I am getting old or some of the things people say are just ridiculous! Catching feelings is the new expression for unattached people ...

Catching Feelings?

Either I am getting old or some of the things people say are just ridiculous! Catching feelings is the new expression for unattached people who are fucking around with their friends with benefits and begin to actually like them. Once again, I do need to state I don't believe in the friends with benefits thing. If I am having sex with you, I don't want to know I am not the only one in your life; even if I know I am not. Yes, I am a rare bird where I want to be lied to. I would respect you as well, as far as you are concerned you are the only man in my life. It is the way it should be. I think we all come to a point in our lives where  meaningless sex lives could never outweigh a real relationship. Most men just fear it and women fear that the men are afraid so they never approach the subject. I am very upfront about the Friends with benefits thing: If you are my friend then we don't have sex...You can date me, be my lover and treat me like the spectacular woman that I am but we are not, nor will we ever be, friends.
This is the problem I have with society. We have become so demoralized, most do not care about each others feelings, well at least for those that "catch them". Catch them? I guess we have resorted back to the cootie stage of our childhood; feelings have become cooties. You don't catch feelings, even if it is just chemistry, those are feelings. They were there all along. The process of falling in love can be blissful and easy but in a lot of cases detrimental and traumatic to someone who may be alone holding all those feelings. We have become a society where we just try on people for size. It's a sad lonely world and it gets even lonelier when you fill it with meaningless and time consuming sex. Sure I can get laid and enjoy it very much, that could go on for months. The problems begin when I need to cry or be held without someone's hand going into my pants then who do I call? We all get older and most never want to look that far in advance. No one wants to think they will end up alone when it is a very real probability too. I know men feel they are never too old, which always makes me laugh. They see themselves as these sexy beasts when in reality I can't find one close to my age who takes care of themselves but they all want a hot chick! I am just as bad and just as shallow but I do have an argument, I take care of myself and look very good for my age. In fact for the time being I am one of those hot chicks and I just want what I offer. It isn't that much to ask for. Thankfully right now I can't complain; I have an extremely good looking boyfriend with a rock hard body and in bed we make music. Of course, I do have one complaint, I wouldn't be me without one....he is 33. Yes I should be happy, a lot of women my age can't date a man who is 33. I mean really date him not just fuck him. We can all fuck 30 year olds. It takes a lot to actually date them, especially if you "catch feelings" its even harder. I like to trick myself into thinking we could be together forever and that this is it for me. He is almost all I want and no one is perfect. It's a beautiful thought but we all know it isn't the truth. I will give him up and one of us will get hurt and my quest will begin again. For the time I have remaining with my love I will enjoy it and absorb as much of him as I possibly can. I can carry him with me for years to come. I do this with all the men I care about that have been cast aside. I take all the good in them and hold them so close to me so the next man has to live up to, not one man, but many. Inevitably, I am making the perfect man. All I can hope for is the man I am making is close to his 45 Birthday or older, well taken care of and is looking for a 40+ sexy woman who he can "catch feelings" for. Sweep her off her feet and make her his. There I will be waiting, I just hope he doesn't want a hot, YOUNG chick but that blog is for another day.